I stared at the ember

Till sleep came to seize me

The ember still glowing

Stubbornly flickering

We bade at each other, reassuring—

“Have faith in me.“

We let the world tell us that our worth is based entirely on what’s outside of us, on what can be seen. We’re not measured simply by our existence but rather by what we can offer. That light. That spark. That’s the Divine in you. The Christ in you. Let it radiate. That is what the world needs. That is what you can offer. That is what your Soul is worth. Do not let anyone outside of you tell you otherwise.

As I leave a relationship that is no longer in alignment with who I truly am, I see myself standing in my own power as I speak my truth without seeking anybody’s approval nor validation. I see myself living a healthy lifestyle—mind, body, and soul as I listen to my intuition. I am protecting my energy as the lost broken fragments of me come HOME to my True Self.

My hope is that as you open your heart and mind to new possibilities, as you become MINDFUL of feeding the “good wolf” in you. The good that is in you. The GOOD that is YOU.

Just like the autumn leaves, I change, I let go, and I move on. This is the soul of my season. This is the season of my Soul.

Standing where the light took me. Standing in my strength. Standing in my truth and power. I am slowly taking back control of my life. Where did all this beauty come from? A different path, a new journey awaits. Albeit all the unknowns, there is the certainty of a promising future.

Amid rest and healing, you can find that there is strength within you. In the resting, you can find the softness of acceptance. In the healing, you can see the softness of flexibility and resilience. In the process, you can find that “soft” is what you need—it is that gentle force that will lead you to your Self. Be gentle to who you are becoming.

Messy? Yes, life is one big mess! We spend our time mopping the floor with our tears and sweeping the remnants of healing.

I have never regretted a tear, a smile or an apology. Those are the gems of a life freely lived. A real, authentic life.

Soul exhaustion can happen to anyone at any time because life requires a lot from us. It’s all-consuming. When you’re in the thick of it, it’s easy to withdraw from people you love and crave solitude. Save time to dig deeper into that hollowed-out Soul. Take your time so you can figure out what it is that you need to make your soul feel alive again.

I know cannot find peace if my mind is constantly fighting against everything that is currently happening in my life. As long as I am fighting something; as long as my mind struggles, I cannot find the peace that I so long to seek.  

I love how when the ocean rolls back, it leaves in its trail beautiful and colorful jewels of beauty for the earth to behold.

Just long enough until the water rolls over to obscure the jewels only to hug the land back.

And the earth never denounced. She never holds the ocean back. She lets it be.

Knowing that only through its vacillating motion can they both feel free.

Sometimes we find our greatest joy in a moment of full surrender. Sometimes we find our greatest strength when we feel our weakest. Sometimes we find our greatest love for ourselves when we feel most broken.

As I learn to find solace in that rock bottom, I am finding the beauty—how my heart feels, how my mind overthinks, how my Soul refuses to be tempered. In the spirit of love and forgiveness, I am also learning to reclaim my power back. Just looking at the beauty of that deep valley in my mind, I know this place serves a purpose.

Cast your cares, you tender being

Cast your heart and hear it beating

Cast your mind and know you’re willing

Cast your soul and find yourself conquering

In the belly of the hammock is that Inner Child seeking validation and wanting to know her own worth. I felt the hammock womb’s warm embrace, giving me assurances that all is well, in spite of my fears and insecurities. No criticisms. No need to prove anything. No need to show my worth. Just be that child in the womb, being cared for—safe, and secure. Tears don’t come out freely from this tired spirit, but I took a deep breath and just let myself be lulled within that womb.

SPIRIT AWARD- teamwork. My mind, body, and soul have to be aligned with my real life’s purpose. Team-spirit- the energy I have to put out into the world to make my life’s work come to full fruition. That’s the work I needed to do. Give it a try! This time, you’ll make it.

Our family is far from perfect.  I am not a perfect wife nor a perfect mom. I have a lot of shortcomings and weaknesses. Although I always brag about my kids, they also have their faults and foibles.  But if there is one thing that we all have, it’s FAMILY—our home, our touch base, our cornerstone, our constant. We draw from each other’s strengths. We live from each other’s love. We grow from each other’s spirit.

I long for that world again, where you can just play with your friends.

Safe.

Unencumbered.

Free.

Joyful.

A world where you can live life wholeheartedly.

Living easily in the Present.

Launching yourself on every wave.

Dancing in the middle of nowhere freely in any tune.

Ragged.

Tired.

Exhausted.

But free...and safe.

It’s time for me to create for MYSELF what I have been creating for other people’s lives for 40+ years of my life. Now is the time for ME to step into my own light. And in doing so, I will have more impact that will help the generations to come, as I lead by example and inspiration on a much grander scale.

I’m giving myself space. To center. To allow the pressure to subside from this tiny physique, worn out from all the stresses life has put upon this past year. To put my heart into what I’m doing at this moment. This very moment. When I’m writing. Pen to paper. Heart into creation.