We let the world tell us that our worth is based entirely on what’s outside of us, on what can be seen. We’re not measured simply by our existence but rather by what we can offer. That light. That spark. That’s the Divine in you. The Christ in you. Let it radiate. That is what the world needs. That is what you can offer. That is what your Soul is worth. Do not let anyone outside of you tell you otherwise.

As you read through these lines, know that you are not alone. Know that you are enough– more than enough; even if the only thing that you did today was to pray and breathe. That prayer that you just did? That breathing exercise and meditation that you just finished? Those send energy and vibes into this world depleted of feelings of worthiness.

My hope is that you leave some space in your heart for the unimaginable because you are totally worth it. No matter how stuck or undeserving you feel, you are worthy of anything you think is unimaginable. Your heart knows. Your Spirit will guide you. You are a walking, breathing, unimagined dream that has yet to be unleashed. Your life, as it unfolds is a miracle...a sweet reminder of all the beautiful things that you can offer into this world.

One of the most difficult things is learning that I WAS WORTH THE RECOVERY. I do not have to persist to show my worth.  I do not have to stay.  I could set my boundaries. You cannot heal in the environment where you got sick. I needed to leave. Survival mode is over.  It’s not giving up.  It’s SURRENDERING.  Surrendering to what awaits me, no matter how uncertain it could be. Surrendering to the Divine process. BUT I HAVE TO ALLOW MYSELF TO WALK AWAY. 

You are not broken. Your mind is stubbornly resisting the truth about yourself. You matter. You are enough. You are a Child of God. Accept your own truths.

I Only Need a Little Bit

Of Time to Spend

Of Sacred Space

Of Place to Unwind

Of Moments to Cherish

Of a Push on the back

Of a Tap on the shoulder

Of a Word of Honor.

We all possess creativity.  I believe it’s just a matter of how, when, and why you use it. Sometimes it is difficult to show what we can really do because of fear.  Fear of criticism. Fear of failure. Fear of success.  Fear of not making enough money. Fear of losing money.  Fear of “not having a real job”.

This day full of emotions just made my resolve to Dream Big with a spirit that cannot be subdued nor overcome and allowed me the determination and the confidence to handle the many challenges and obstacles in life.

Sometimes, what you see in the mirror is not exactly a reflection of what you really are. Beauty can mean different things to different people.  To a certain degree, beauty is subjective, and it’s essential that we don’t take someone else’s opinion at face value. We need to look closer to discover what we find as honestly beautiful, whether that be in our personality, our character, our intentions, and yes, on how we show up to and for others.

This time around, I am learning to become the adult that I need as an adult.

I am the author of my story and I alone can make edits and write a happy ending.

Sometimes, there's only so much you can handle that you begin drawing lines from other people, close friends included. Saying "NO" and "I have given enough" is sometimes imperative in keeping yourself sane. I believe that's what a healthy boundary is. You protect yourself and your loved ones from further damage.

Of Time to Spend…Of Sacred Space…Of Place to Unwind…

Keep faith. Sometimes we have to go through the darkness to find the answers. To rediscover your light. To find your power. To keep on going.

I now understand how people need genuine connection. It does not involve numbers and equations of what I'm worth or what you're worth.  But I can sit by you.  My soul craves for real connections with likeminded people. How are you feeling? When was the last time you cried? Tell me what you are grateful for. Why do you feel vulnerable? What beauty do you see? What sparks the light within you?

Last night was the last straw. I felt the need to distance myself. I need honest and straightforward people. I am tired of sorting out people in my life.

My favorite time of the year was summertime when we go to the rural province to her old two-story wooden home. How I loved that home! Surrounded by big trees and bamboos, it reminds me of otherworldly-creature stories and legends she used to tell. The stairs and the balcony where we would lay down and watch the tree branches and leaves sway, singing with my aunt, or listening to my grandma tell more stories.

No need to rush for things that are bound to happen.  It will happen in the right place, at the right time, and with the right intentions….

For now, I just need to focus on my new path with bigger visions and much bigger intentions…

This is my path now.  The one I need to give my time and focus on. With ease and very little pressure.

When you’re drowning in water, first you try to struggle. Then you get tired of the struggle and your body just let go. You let it sink. Then my mind quieted down with just one sentence. “The world will keep on going without me.”

“The success of every woman should be the inspiration to another. We should raise each other up. Make sure you’re very courageous: be strong, be extremely kind, and above all be humble.” — Serena Williams