Square Peg in a Round Hole
misfit
ˈmisˌfit
noun: misfit; plural noun: misfits
a person whose behavior or attitude sets them apart from others in an uncomfortably conspicuous way (Google dictionary)
A lot of people think of misfits as something bad or negative. In my world, it is something that makes one unique.
Fifteen years ago, someone read my aura and asked me if I’ve ever felt like I don’t belong? I did not totally understand what she was asking. We further talked about how sometimes, I feel like a square peg in a board of round holes. Not only that, I also felt like I was hastily displaced in the middle of my birth family, with which I have very little connections with. What she told me then molded my current spiritual beliefs, shaped my spiritual practice, and helped me resolve and accept who I am.
Most of my college classmates would argue the fact that I am also an introvert. That’s okay, I also made my contradicting argument with Myers and Briggs. But that, I am. An INFJ. A highly functional one, but an introvert nonetheless. I am able to function well at work and multitask. But at the end of the day, when I get home, I cower under the blanket to recharge my batteries.
I love spending time with my family. We love traveling a lot and I know my kids have earned lots of memories, from being on the top of Eiffel Tower, to just spending family time in our cabin by the Smokey’s. We talk about those memories a lot.
I love the sound of the rain. I love the smell of the earth. I love walking barefoot on the ground. I’m a nature lover and a tree-hugger.
I love deep and intelligent conversations. Superficial conversations suck the energy out of me. I do not mind large parties or gatherings, but maybe I’ve outgrown them; or maybe its part of mid-life, I would always find a way to sneak out and converse privately, in a quiet, safe space, if possible. Then back to my safe place, my comfy bed, underneath my blanket or just relax on my porch with a cup of tea or cocoa.
I cherish my quiet time alone. I love journaling. Writing is my passion. Sometimes prose and poems are what inexplicably come out when I write on my journal. I am also a bookie with dystopian, sci-fi, fantasy, and adventures as me favorite genres. I love doing yoga and a quiet meditation in the mornings or whenever I get the chance.
For those of you who feel bad about who I am, STOP! This is who I am and I celebrate my uniqueness. If there’s one thing I would ask of you, it would be acceptance. You don’t need to decipher me. Don’t even try to understand me. Just ACCEPT me. That’s all.
Peace!
For further information about Myers Briggs and the different personalities, please go to this site: https://www.myersbriggs.org
